At present I’m fighting jet lag, caffeine withdrawal and a family who doesn’t know when to settle down for the evening. All that aside, I don’t think I would have difficulty writing a blog post. I’ve fought through similar circumstances before to meet my self-imposed schedule. I love blogging. I have ideas I want to convey, some of which might even be helpful to you. Yet my fingers and brain conspire to halt every sentence I write, and my internal editor is so active, she must be training for an Olympic meet. Why should that be, exactly?
I’ve entertained several theories over the past twenty-four hours, and the one that seems most true is that I’ve fallen out of the habit of being brave. The very conditions which made our family holiday so relaxing have atrophied my mental muscles. So today, rather than throw in the towel, some baby steps forward.
I’m going to make a few declarations and just get the worst of it out there. A few points will receive full press treatment in later posts, so consider yourself forewarned. If you don’t value honesty, bluntness and a tendency towards pessimism, this blog’s probably not for you this week.
- The Tart is not a Disneyland kind of girl. Not.
- Though I learned a lot at RWA Nationals, and count wonderful moments as part of the experience, I cannot precisely say I had fun.
- I envy people who sail through writing conferences without acute self-consciousness, shyness, or interference from people-generated drama. Since those are probably mythical beings, I envy those who appear to sail through writing conferences without acute self-consciousness, shyness, or interference from people-generated drama.
- Maui is teh awesome.
- My family is teh awesome.
- I cannot wait for the ToolMaster, Frank and Molly to be teh awesome elsewhere — that is to say, their workplace and schools. They should share their many gifts with other people who will appreciate them, and let me get back to my routine.
- If I had any self-discipline, the last statement would be entirely unnecessary. My family should stay home long enough for me to develop a routine that includes them.
- The Tart occasionally experiences ambivalence.
There. Having struck a blow against the dark forces of cowardice and inertia, a video which puts my own struggles into perspective. Also, it contains James Blunt, which is never a bad thing.